2011年3月31日 星期四

K歌友情人 Last Minute Lyrics and Music

昨天勤力地做我應該做的事,終於完成了。趕及今天截止前完成。但是沒有時間找人給意見。 
(但是最應該做的事仍然未做。)
Yesterday I was very hardworking on a should do and want to do item. Completed and submitted before the deadline. However, no time for seeking opinion.
(Well, but the most should do item is still outstanding.)

2011年3月30日 星期三

漂亮的升呢和降呢 The uplevel and down-level of prettiness

昨天練習配隱形眼鏡,只可使用六小時,然後要換原來的眼鏡。 
整天也好像快要把隱形眼鏡眨出來,特別是看電腦屏幕,差不多每五分鐘就略要休息。 
沒有眼鏡框阻擋我的雙眼,靚一點點的。 
前些時候友人也提醒我要漂亮一些,若能夠拍拖有漂亮的印象後才可換原來的眼鏡。 
我覺得不太好哦,像我有一名前男友使用這一個方法,我很氣憤和討厭。起初與我見面他都穿恤衫,後來拍拖穩定下來,就穿休閒的Tee恤,我說怎麼都不再穿恤衫啦,好像好看些?他回答「在搬家的時候丟失了。」真是這樣嗎? 
Yesterday I practiced using contact lens.
Looking at the computer screen was tiredsome.
I was a little bit prettier.
Before that a friend reminded that I must not use glasses before getting a boyfriend, but after the boyfriend forms the impression that I am pretty I can change back to the original uglier glasses.
I think it might not be very good. My long time ago ex-boyfriend used this skill on me with shirts vs T-shirts. I felt being cheated and not being cherished enough after hearing his excuse that all shirts are lost when moving house.

2011年3月25日 星期五

此地無銀三百兩 See, there is no 300 silver coins here

上次短宣,離開時在車上大家陸續分享今次的感想與得著。而我所分享的,是我的過去,在此地。其實我真的不想,我覺得這樣太自我中心了,為甚麼不多說 神國的事呢?但我又真的很想說,因為終有一天我不再這麼自我中心了吧? 
幾年前我開始想退休時我會做甚麼。我常常以為我會在雲南的山間,耕作,唱歌跳舞,教導 神的話。很難想像我是會農務的人? 
Last time at the end of the short missionary trip when I should have been sharing God's grace in the two days, I told them about my history, there. I was thinking I should not be that self centred and shouldn't I instead spoke about God's kingdom? However, I really made the sharing, and the only compensation was to think that maybe one day I am no longer self centred.
Years ago I think of my retirement. I often mistaken that I would be in Yunnan mountains, farming, singing dancing, and teaching about God's words. Is it difficult to imagine my agricultural life?

2011年3月24日 星期四

平凡的麻煩 The ordinary trouble

日前看重回凡間的凡人一劇,上次看時的記憶只剩下一點點,所以真的同重新看一樣。  
在重回凡間的凡人裡,最令我驚心的是開首主角到深圳,其他人找他只能連到電話留言。是的,我既常常讓人只接上我的電話留言,我自己卻又最討厭打電話給別人時接到留言信箱。這是一般的問題。 
另外一幕甚麼應該記得,甚麼不應該記得,讓我很慚愧,因為我好像不應該預計我的朋友記得甚麼不記得甚麼?所以有些擔心說錯話了,在我的敘述一些我的觀察中。這是特定的問題。 
其實我真的常常在想甚麼是愛情,但是真的十分不適合進入愛情;借用枕邊冇情人的一句情話,「你的生活真是一團糟。」 
一向以來,就是我一邊在潛意識中不自覺地認識新朋友擴大生活圈子增加待辦事項,但是卻期望,如果可以選擇是否會過不用選擇的生活,只是與一兩個值得信任的朋友參加一兩項喜歡的活動,就好了呢? 
I watched An Ordinary Man, the performance.
The most stunning was the Shenzhen trip and the voice mailbox, at the start.
At the scene of what should be remembered and what should be forgotten by a man, I was freezed. I hoped my observation description was not out of mind.
At my leisure time I really think about the distance of me and the next love relationship, but I cannot imagine it; take the love word in No String Attached, 'Your life is a mess.'
My unintentional subconscious solution was to add to my to do list but the last one was to choose a life without choice and I just repeat the one to two beloved activities with one to two trustful friends.

2011年3月23日 星期三

凡人的掙扎 The give up of struggle by an ordinary man

昨天看完「重回凡間的凡人」,突然想要一個記念。於是買了劇本。不想買的原因是不想家中又多一件垃圾,因為所有有價值的東西,我都不會好好保存而存放成如同垃圾一樣。然後又順道買了「矯情」與「回收旖旎時光」劇本合集。希望看完後,我的英文會進步啦。其實都不是為此。就是我的衝動,釀成今次的流血事件。 
Yesterday after seeing the drama, I suddenly wanted a token of memory, and I bought the script of the play. I did not want to buy it to bring a rubbish to the flat, and all valuable things lost its place at my home, and then stayed as if rubbish. And I even also bought the combined published Pretense / Recycling Times. I hope that my language is enhanced after reading through. Actually I am not setting this aim. Well, my purchase was impulsive as usual.

2011年3月22日 星期二

魔髮奇緣 Tangled

昨天借影碟時,順道問了迪士尼新動畫的出碟時間。租碟店主告訴我要等約三個月。好的,我到時可以約友人看。友人在電影院看後覺得好看,說,想來長髮的我會很愛看。我們相約是否再到電影院看,可是已經落畫了。不要緊,看影碟也很好。   
Yesterday when I rented VCD, I also asked whether the Disney cartoon is out. The VCD rental shopkeeper told me that the timing is about 3 months. Good. I will then see it with my friend, who watched it and told me that I might like to see it, and also given that my hair is really long. We planned to watch in the cinema, but soon it was no longer on show. It is fine. Let us see the DVD.

2011年3月17日 星期四

哭泣與呼求 Crying out

歌唱班上一堂是教陳奕迅Crying In The Party。我對這首歌只有一點印象。唔知點解我覺得能夠治療因為日本地震和海嘯的難過,尤其是因為我對天災比較有點麻木的。 



Last singing class the song taught was Eason Chan Crying In The Party. I have just a little idea of this song. I do not know why it was just the mood for me to release my sadness towards the Japan earthquake and tsunami. It is especially for me who is more reserved and restrained or numb, to say.

2011年3月16日 星期三

遠行 Seat in the darkness for sleeping or prayer

上星期五,鄰座預備主日的聖詩,是「主領我何往必去」。 
原來我的教會都是唱這首聖詩。 

不過看來我沒有。例如我想讀神學,都是我想而已。但是各學院的門不是都在開嗎?只是我沒有付諸行動,而依靠一些沒有根據的隨機事件,例如失業等,作是否報讀的條件是錯的。 
不過我都承認真的沒有呼召。然而我都會等候和尋找讀適合我的進修。 
還有甚麼地方我要去或者不去的嗎? 
其實神已經對我很好的了,很多我想的事情都發生了,而那些我想卻又沒有發生的際遇,我發現我都不是那麼想。 
接下來,我會逃往他施。然後,可能會睡在漆黑的船艙,然後,可能會在同樣漆黑的魚腹禁食禱告。 
那麼我就會乖乖回教會的小組了。 
後記:星期五又要唱? 

Last Friday, my neighbor seat prepares the hymn of "Wherever He Leads I'll Go".
Incidentally my church also sings this song in the services.

But I don't think I am walking it. Say I want to study about God and can I see the Bible colleges all around? Just I do not put into action but just rely on random things such as the interruption of work. This is wrong for me to make it a condition of learning about God.
However, I admit that there is no calling for me, but I shall wait and seek further study about God as appropriate.
Anywhere that I must go or must not go?
I am satisfied in God that a lot that I like has happened or else I found out that those are not what I like so much.
The next place I go is Spain, and then maybe I sleep in the dark cabin in the ship, and then I might turn up for prayer with fasting.
And then when I get out of the darkness I will be willing to go to cell.
p.s. This song will appear again on Friday!

2011年3月15日 星期二

秋收冬藏 Autumn collection is hidden during Winter

昨天很高興,能完成我的心願,聆聽去年秋令營的講道錄音。 
秋令營在去年十月初舉行,當中三講的第三講期間離營,其時決心補聽錄音。冬天的時候問了未有,後來我就不那麼勤力問了;直至上星期四晚上才借了,直至昨晚才聽了,也快半年了。 
回想起在營會的最後部分,是立志,寫下來的目標寄存在教會,想來也快要收到吧﹗我開始期待收到這「給自己的信」。 
聆聽講道的錄音,我最深刻的是第一講,我想說確認了我真的「不愛」母親。冰封三尺,非一日之寒。我同時也很慚愧,因為對她是有點憤怒。與她的互動當中常常動怒。希望我能改過。 
其實我都想自由的。希望我能與人恢復關係,和好過來。 
「焦點不是我的情緒,而是我如何對待那個人。」 
無聊一說,有關不愛母親,最令我擔心的就是,那麼我在結婚典禮上就不能真心地感謝我的母親的養育之恩了?因為常常看到婚禮上新人都會感謝父母家人的養育之恩。 
Yesterday I was happy, that I completed my plan, and listened to the recording of Autumn Camp last year.
The autumn camp was held at the start of October. I skipped the third talk of the three, and at that time I made up my mind to listen to it later on. During winter the recording was still not ready, and I did not ask at the library for it for a while until last Thursday.
After that, I listened to it yesterday night. It has been half a year.
I recalled that at the last part of the camp, it was a goal setting activity, and the aims were written and kept at the church, and should be mailed to each attendant around this time? I want to receive this ‘Letter to future me’ so much!
Listening to the sermons, the first was the most impactful to me. I think I really ‘love not’ my mom. The cumulated coldness has been for long. I could not help but felt sorry for my behavior to her that contains anger. It is confirmed that I am angry when interact with her. I hope for change in me.
I want to be free and restore the relationship in harmony.
‘Focus not on my emotion but how I treat the person.’
A side issue, that I think of about ‘love not my mom’, that I ‘worry most’ is that if I cannot authentically thank my mom for bringing me up at my wedding in case? It is because on weddings the couples always thank the parents and the family for bringing them up.

2011年3月14日 星期一

器材 Fixture

上星期六上午很想合照的卻沒有,因為我手邊沒有相機,其實都問了別人但不被重視,其實也算是我的要求不太合理,因為與主角無關。 
Last Saturday morning I would like to take a picture together, but I do not have camera on hand. I have made the request, but I could say that I should not have asked, because it was a bit out of the theme.

2011年3月11日 星期五

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我還是決定不要故意在星期四學唱歌,決定增加星期四返教會的祈禱會。雖然還有些少想上桃桃老師每月一次的星期四歌唱課,不知道今年不是系統式教學,會是主題式的嗎。  
I cannot just make it intentionally to the Thursday singing class but I think I should rather use Thursdays for the prayer meeting. Although in addition I am a little bit wanting to support Miss Total monthly singing classes on Thursday, which might not be systematic, and could it be thematic.

2011年3月9日 星期三

卡住 Card resident in my wallet

友人說她要將焦點對準神,我看到歌羅西書三章23-24節的金句卡時立刻想起要給她。這是環球領袖高峰會金句卡系列的一張。
給她時,她說已經有了,但我說,你沒有放在身邊啊。
隔天我們同隊前往短宣,在我分享的一件事,她觀察到我要以神為中心而歌羅西書三章23-24節也是我所需要的,所以就將金句卡回贈給我,因為她家裡有這金句卡。
我的錢包原放了箴言三章5-6節金句卡,於是我就將下一張疊放其前面。
但錢包的空間有限,即使前後相疊,還看不到後面的一張。
今天我細看時,覺得現時保持在箴言三章5-6節會安心些。但願這不是我的任性、或自作聰明。
你要專心仰賴耶和華,不可倚靠自己的聰明,
在你一切所行的事上,都要認定他,他必指引你的路。
箴言三章5-6節


My friend is focusing on God. I see a line Colossians 3:23-24 good for her on a bookmark.
But she has the bookmark, so she'd rather let me keep it myself.
On the way in short missionary, she observed that I should keep God at the centre and this verse is also in my need.
Thus she returned the bookmark to me, given that she already has it at home.
My wallet has the previous verse, and it can hold two verses one after the other.
Today I look carefully and I felt that the previous one Proverb 3:5-6 would be more comfortable there. I hope it was not my self-will or cleverness.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

2011年3月8日 星期二

抱抱俏佳人/完美嫁衣 Perfect Wedding

今天想看抱抱俏佳人。
看了,唔好睇,只有前男友的演技較好。
不過因為我是楊千嬅的Fans。
又因為今天是三八婦女節,想看戲。
生活是有些不如意,又這是我由上畫時在想看不看,到決定不看,而近來終於決定要看的戲,看了也好,也有笑位。
唯一的巧合或者讓我驚喜的,是拍賣會場地是小白鷺,歌唱比賽的場地,而我竟然又認得,因為天花的燈。
但是巧合卻是那麼平凡,常常都會發生這些讓我樂上好一陣子的巧合。
每次出現類巧合事情,我就很開心。
幸福呢?在電影裡,女主角唯一說出口她感到幸福的時候是好姊妹為她張羅安排的時間。
我相信我都是一樣吧,例如Iris Lam在fb祝福我會找到很愛很愛我的人,突然讓我覺得她很錫我,所以我感到很幸福,即使我知道不是她說有就有那位「很愛很愛我的人」。
巧合呢?最近有一小件讓我上山的歷險,我就隨想善心人士會否間接地與我認識呢,這是胡思亂想的典型。
後記:還有,媽媽隨意地說,楊千嬅的聲音與我有點似,媽媽說當她在廚房工作時以為我在播自己的錄影。弊,透露了我在媽媽辛勤做家務時在看電影。

Today I want to watch Perfect Wedding.
I watched. It is far from perfect. Only the ex-boyfriend had the best acting performance.
However, I would say I am Miriam Yeung’s fans.
Also today is 8 Mar Women’s Day. I want to celebrate by something special, maybe a movie.
There is some hanging in my life. Thus I choose a movie I was thinking seeing or not during it was on show, and I determined that it is not worth to watch even for VCD / DVD, but then I recently decided to watch. I watched. It was funny.
The only coincidence that surprised me is that the auction venue is Little Egret, the singing competition venue, and I recognized it only due to the ceiling luminary fixtures.
Well, but coincidences are very ordinary, and it happens often enough for me to be happy from time to time.
If it is similar to coincidences then I am cheerful.
When do I feel blissful? In the movie, the time that the main actress explicitly says she feels blissful, was when her sisters took care of and got busy about her.
I think I need similar, such that Iris Lam gave the blessings to me that I would find the most beloved loving other half of me, and I could just felt her caring to me. It could be what she said was not an anticipation.
How about coincidences? Recently I just had a safe adventure and I just got the random thought that whether I know the kind hearted indirectly. It is just thinking out of the box.
P.S.: Just that mom randomly said that Miriam Yeung has a similar voice with me, and mom said that when she was working in the kitchen she thought I was seeing my own recording. Oops, I just showed that I was relaxingly seeing movie when my mom was hard working on housework.

2011年3月7日 星期一

20110306 夢 Dream

有一些餐具:幾隻碗和一個餸架,要疊起。
There are some utensils including big bowls and a steaming rack for stacking up.

2011年3月4日 星期五

20110304 夢 Dream

心上人發現我掛念他而予以澄清一些fb status不是對我而是另有其人。
場景一轉,到了一個會場,以燈光效果出現水底效果,友人說,比潛水更像真。會場還有其他場景效果。
我有時在會場中駐足觀賞﹐或獨自走,不拿任何東西,有時回房間找適合的披。
場景一轉,到鄉下地方,是一條小食街,媽媽向我介紹哪些是美味的,哪些是她兒時常吃的。我們坐下選吃,我向她說與她的兄弟姊妹哪一位較熟悉。
The person on my heart discovers that I miss him and thus clarifies the fb status is not to me but to someone else.
The scene changed. It is a venue with underwater lighting effect and a friend says it is more real than when diving. The venue has other effects.
I am standing at the venue for sight seeing or has some walking around. I do not bring along anything, and at a time I go back to my room for a suitable cloak.
The scene changed. It is a traditional street. My mom tells me which was delicious and which was her youth time favourite. We take a seat and have some, and I tells her who I am more kin to among her siblings.

2011年3月1日 星期二

20110301 夢 Dream

類似歷險,以及繪畫。
Similar to an adventure, and drawing of the people and event.