「認識自我」的20條問題

「1) 在你生活中最重要的人物是誰？為什麼？ Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
我，？ 神？ 最具影響力，母親 」
都係答左短答題及在思考，所以打左「？」


「2) 在你生活中最想達成的夢想是什麼？ What is the one dream for your life you most look forward to achieving?
任憑主用。
愛神愛人？ 完成神學課程？ 結婚生子？ 創業？ 」 這個可能會update吧，當我最近重新發現書架是我家。

3) 在你生活中最容易使你生氣的是哪一個人？在哪種情況下，他或她會使你生氣？ Who has the capacity to make you angrier than anyone else in your life, and what in particular does he or she do to make you angry?
認叻的人。約會但不追求
以專家自居，權威
鬧我情緒化，問我唔識答的問題
咁趕不應該去
別人對，我錯
很注意叻或唔叻。
挑剔但沒有講明想要的結果。

4) 在你生活中最常使你感到被愛的是哪一個人？在哪種情況下，他或她會使你覺得如此被愛？ Who has the capacity to make you feel loved more than anyone else in your life, and what in particular does he or she do to cause you to feel so lovable?
姐姐 送電腦
Acknowledge feeling & tum me
不因為我的行為而愛我，不為什麼。
較忙，不用我太關心。
將重要的事告訴我。
平等分享。

5) 更確切地講，你對自己在身體上、情緒上、精神上和靈性上的感覺如何？ What is it like being you? More precisely, how do you feel about yourself - physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually?

6) When do you feel inspired? Who and what contribute to your sense of inspiration? How does it feel when you are inspired?
Every daily event.
happy time.

 7) What is the most important thing in the world to you?
Book.
thoughts.
understand how the world works.

8) If you had one day to live, how would you want to spend?
Nature.
see the sunrise.
sleep enough.
eat something.
do reading or sewing at picturesque location.

9) When do you feel most afraid?
Not being loved. no use.
people make use of me.
bored.
no one to seek help.
not up to expectation.
No direction.

10) If you could accomplish only one thing during the rest of your life, what would it be?
Read all books.
write all blogs.
even when mom scold.
even when not love mom.
Even when no other half.
even when no friends.
even when no more piano.
mouth piece.
beauty.
with glasses.
no one understand.
no communication with friends.

11) What bores you? What always bores you, and what never bores you?
Repetition. Telling lie and fake humility.
Repetition with variation. music. Drawing.

12) How important is money to you? How much time do you spend thinking about it, and what income level do you aspire to?
Not care. but i need it of course. otherwise do not know how to make money. 300 daily. plus. 3000 monthly. Plus 30000 annually. Plus 300000 in a life.

13) What is the role of God in your life? Do you believe there is a God, and if so, what is God like in relation to you?
I am seeking God.
what pleases God? My role model of living. my standard of justification and discernment. my source to be of joy and emotion.

14) In order, what are your three strongest interests?
1. care people
2. donate money
3. express my complaints.
4. know what is right or wrong.

15) Who is your biggest enemy, and precisely how and why did this person become your enemy?

16) How important is food to you? Do you think of it often, and do you feel disciplined in your management of food intake?

17) Does the idea of being married to the same person for the rest of your life sound appealing to you- or not so appealing? What is there about it that you would especially like or not like?

18) Do you think yourself as an emotionally healthy person? In what ways are you especially healthy, and in what ways could you use improvement?

19) What is the role of conflict in your life? Do you argue or fight very much with the people closest to you? How does it usually turn out for you?

20) What specifically would you like your closest friends to say about you at your funeral?

20140403 祈禱前你可以做什麼 what can you do before prayer

昨天，為一個地方祈禱。祈禱時間不多，反而之前要用了很多時間瞭解背景資料。
投入感受、聆聽、觀察(或聆聽別人的觀察)。
風土人情，是一種怎樣的情？
首先通過一個快閃的歌唱演出分享的記錄片，我想到在突如其來的事情發生時，我如何投入其中，應對、反應，而不僅按既定程序完成所有事情而是此時此刻。無論是驚喜高歌，或突發新聞。
而與我們相似，但一海之隔，他們說，我們不想好似你們咁。
我們眼中的別人，別人眼中的我們。
另一個分享是有關對話及如何培養下一代，如何與下一代說他們懂的話，需要耐心和貼身。
走的時候，我與另一青年人順路同往港鐵站。青年人出席了為特別主題而設的祈禱會，而不是恆常的祈禱會。雖然教會內，不多人關注，她自己也是近期才關注。她感到信徒似比較內聚，不夠關注此時此刻的社會現況，較非信徒墮後了。她選擇，出席此祈禱會以表支持關注。
我的個人反省思量有三。會前是為什麼我還有閒出席，這算是新增的(我需減活動)，算是不專注嗎？
會時是我們用不同華語，用廣東話談台灣的事，而沒有用國語，但是因為有心聆聽觀察，溝通到了。而不是說同一語言卻失聯。
會時還有反省，上一代有這麼多歷練，有豐富的底蘊，但我還想享受受教，但其實也有更年輕的人，如可能，我應該有所傳授，才發覺自己完全沒有可傳。或自覺如此。
將這後兩項與同關注的同路人談了。
後記：前往時首次極速走完前往會場兩個地鐵站距離的一段路，是否不繞道減兩蚊會快些？而離開前往下場的時間也很快，只有兩人已到達，還未點菜。

20140401 無用之用 The worth of worthlessness

一直暫當有用是自小至大聽來的重覆語句。
「你要做有用的人」「你這樣沒有用的了。」
我的客旅任務，難道就是受到要成為有用的人所阻撓？所以總被各樣的需要拉扯了。
但我想我還是想擁有太多：有形的、無形的。
所以才爭取不被人利用，都是枉然。
只是做到無用的僕人就行了。
甚至借調。
但前提是，被打進腦子的真是「有用、無用」嗎？
記憶不及。
I could hardly do the recall exercise.
Gear down.
Be the submissive and obedient servant.
I have listened to 2014 revival sermon for so many times and the main point, is not childhood memory, of course.

20140128 凝固與懼怕 Frozen fear

今天買了禮物，是少有的。不過竟然一閃而過，會否買錯。
懼怕真的是一樣可怕的事。
觀察懼怕：躲避，別過臉來不看，閉上眼。
總是想知道原因。
但知道原因，就會幫助到面對了嗎？
但懼怕又是真實的。
可以批評懼怕嗎？
反省自己，可能真的因為某些懼怕，限制了生活的一些層面。
別人看得清楚，但我的力都用來瞄我所懼怕的，確保我不用面對。
Fear.
Frozen.
The cold never bothered me anyway.
Feel.
Free.
But from the movie "Frozen", surface freedom and isolation is not the solution. It is "love cast out fear".

1 John 4:18
New International Version
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
New Living Translation
Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love.
English Standard Version
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.
New American Standard Bible
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.
King James Bible
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.