今年生日，做了兩件期待已久的事，其一是剪短髮，其二是弄花掛簾。
而生日後的計劃是不期待任何事情，不出席任何活動。所以除了已經承諾了，都沒有甚麼其他活動，但單就已經承諾了去的已經很多很多。
例如像昨天與朋友約出來逛街，實在是很少這樣做的﹗過往密密麻麻的活動，餘下就根本沒有時間過這些「非活動」活動。不過以後，若跟從「婉拒活動，有時間不代表有時間」的想法實行，則這樣都更少。
反而也有點想看電影竊聽風雲2，約電影會明天出來看。
而剛才到租碟店看看，因為替弟弟租他想看的戲，我也想想前些時候常租看電影，但今天轉一個圈卻感受不到有甚麼想租來看。其中有想過「再單身遊記」，也有想過是否應該補看「非誠勿擾」及續集(其實我知道為甚麼我因此而略略不開心和不滿)。
I have collected many things. But I use just some of it.
I have a habit of throwing things. And deleting my past.
A male friends said that he worried that I will pick a relationship randomly, because I keep saying that I want to find another half. Now, after I want "I want nothing", it is as if this last want is meaningless. It doesn't matter anymore. I have been sensitive thus too misunderstanding or too cautious. But it doesn't matter anymore.
But there matter sometimes. When I put forward for a warm reminder before it was hot, it has been the rainbow in a cloudy day. You never know who might be more refreshed by the phone call. Maybe it was me in the end.
"If you are the one" was not one for me. Maybe in the future, maybe not, at least I did not want to see it as a compensation of taking too seriously the random suggestion.
The abovermentioned male friends said that I am too random that I am quite uncertain in my interests. This might scare away male friends because they don't want to make guess. It is preferred to be predictable. It is much better than cruelly and kindly, which I almost mistook it as his description of me.
I don't want to make guess either. Therefore I just speak out all my emotions, sometimes unaware of it writing on my face.
Sometimes, I write on facebook. (just kidding.)
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