受傷害的人如何傷害別人 The hurtful in turn hurting

雖然我的口裡說，因為朋友對我比較好的時候我已經很感恩 (to God) ，是不是應該，對於家人有更大的感恩的心 (to God) 呢？　
然而母親依然是 blame me on what I did plus what I did not do, and not able to be pleased, and what I did nice to her she did not appreciate, and when I did not nice to her she keep on blaming, and even 扭曲 some facts to make it that everything I did or did not do are not nice to her.
To admit or to 為自己辯護 both cannot stop her "keep on blaming".
I have said it once, but once more I will say again I am afraid that I will be like her in relation to "long air".
最可悲的是，我依然 unhappy about she keep on blaming on me and 動氣。　
Technically speaking, I should be able to BE CALM because I am younger than her, and easier to change myself.