20150913 眼藥水 Eyedrop

感謝不是沒有人關心。
對不起有些關心感受不到。明明應該。很努力的了。
Thanksgiving to unfelt knowledge.
Until it would be known feeling. Until it would be felt knowledge.

20150908 慢媒體與電車 Slow media and trams

看到突破書誌稱為慢媒體，同意，那麼跟電車是好配對了。

Breakazine nick named as slow media. It is good. Then it would be the perfect media to cover the slow news of trams.

20150907 擔心人 how about her

有一位友人，我常常擔心她太依賴人，沒有倚靠上主。
今天我有點累，想重溫多年沒有上的靈修課。
也許其實我才是依賴人的那一位。

When tired, I think of revision class of personality and spirituality.
Did I worry for a friend, thinking if she is too relying on man instead of God?
Should I rather reflect if I was the one to watch out for such.

20150906 視角的更新 The positive point of view, look up

上週六參加教會讀經加油站的辯論，很好玩。

朋友讚我的口才比想像中好。

在此我運用了過去大學時期參加辯論隊所學的。

另外隊友給我論點，所以論點很多不是我想出來的，只是剛巧我是說結論，感到得到隊友的幫助，而受到讚賞的是我。

還有因是為上主作的，不想浪費現場的兄弟姊妹的時間，也感恩好像有些效果。

（效果其實是，他們感到更迷惘，決定將書卷多讀幾遍。）

然而，幾日後，我有一件事要提出，還是結結巴巴的。感恩就此獲提醒要積極一些，是負面思想的老問題嗎？

昨天週六，原想參加愛班生活生日會，但是小組有責任落到我身，既然前一天祈禱會上，有「能事奉是恩典」，也正好配合事奉的優次吧。

在此也有恩典，由於帶查經我只負責支援，而帶詩歌是我負責，那麼先選詩歌，就將另一群組團契的週末詩選照轉發。「信、望、愛」各一首似乎是好的詩選。

在小組開始前我看看查經資料，「信望愛」剛好就是其中一條主線，查經經文是歌羅西書一1-14。今次正是體會到，願意順服事奉，也就能更多經歷恩典了。

Well, after the debate, brothers and sisters get confused about the background of the Galatians - if we read again as a result, that could have served the purpose of the Bible reading cheering booth two Saturdays ago, I suppose? 

I was further blessed that God has watched over the song selection yesterday (a Saturday). 

Grace, summarizes these two weekends, or weeks I suppose? 

20150905 蘆薈與無印良品 Aloe and Muji

去年夏天去的內蒙古，過了一年才下定決心塗曬後蘆薈，還有效嗎？

我在家中少有任務，其中一項是購買洗髮水洗浴液。多次經過無印良品，仍未選購。改天吧。這麼近，總有機會？

Not until recently did I started aloe treatment for aftersun, but it was the sunburn a year ago in Inner Mongolia. Work not?

I got minimal tasks for home and one is shampoo and body wash, from Muji. Did I pass by for more than three times? Maybe it was too near that I think there would time be always.

20150904 不是鐵人 Iron feet, Horse's eyes, Fairy's stomach

一向我都只能做很少很少東西。
以前好像能做得多是因為實在太得閒了。
我開始明白以前不覆我的大忙人。
今天祈禱會的提醒：能夠服事全是恩典。
不過，我的另一項要學習的，當然就是求助。

昨天，獲嚴正提醒要祈走負面思想。
很重要。

How it looked like I have been everywhere, or could put so much effort on those things I consider important, was that I was really not busy at all before.
Not I am just a bit busy, and then, maybe I first need to learn to seek help.

Yesterday I was reminded not to let negative mind displace some deposit from God.
Important.

20150903 書房和飯廳 Reading room and dining room

書房和飯廳的距離有點遠。
今天的來回有點累。吃力不討好。那麼又是重新檢視想討好誰的時候了。
今天還受到打擊最終還是趕不及在第一年內。我沒有告訴前輩及老師就是這樣我就想放棄。灰心了一下。
灰心過後，還好啦。其實時間和等待不是剛考過的試卷嗎？（總會找到時間，收拾好心情開工的。）

A little distance and I think I just want to not to move to and fro.
Minimization and maximization sometimes still linger on my mind, and I just realize that it was way before since I studied Economics.

20150902 Disconnect unavailable 不能失聯

曾經常常難以聯絡。藉口是，約好就是了。像那約在橋底的中國古代故事。
其實我任由電話沒電，也有點不想人找到我的心態。
最近說不能失聯。除了上週一出現下午用不到電話，竟然之後一直都順利。感恩之餘，也源於我終於肯嘗試早應可用的網上同步版電話即時通訊。只是這麼簡單的解決方法。只好說之前我一直不願嘗試的，卻原來是可行的。
有趣的是，有一位朋友聽錯我說：不能失戀。（糟糕了我的發音不準確，有待改善。）
也許不能失戀這方面，我也有些不願意嘗試但其實可行的解決之道。例如若干人建議：與男性單獨吃飯有什麼問題。沒問題，只是暫時不適合我。我也沒有動力去練習這方面。真可惜。
My phone magically could stay awake for the whole day, daily since last Tuesday. I wonder what factor helped, temperature or humidity?
Could I finally be willing to practice not breaking up in the same?

20150901 Devotion ABC 最簡單的靈修入門

最近由乘巴士改為乘地鐵上班。那麼，在通勤時間安坐可以靈修的神聖空間沒有了。如何在擠迫的地鐵擠出相應的重要時刻。

I prayed to God that from late August this year re-engineer, re-structure, re-anything my daily life and priorities. And it happens. However, maybe I didn't listen careful enough? The devotion arrangement is not clear. Alpha course (accompany non-/new believer)? Bible study fellowship? C for some reading scheme maybe? Devotion is important so I will continue to seek appropriate time and space as moments of devotion, not taking form or mean as end.

「認識自我」的20條問題

「1) 在你生活中最重要的人物是誰？為什麼？ Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
我，？ 神？ 最具影響力，母親 」
都係答左短答題及在思考，所以打左「？」


「2) 在你生活中最想達成的夢想是什麼？ What is the one dream for your life you most look forward to achieving?
任憑主用。
愛神愛人？ 完成神學課程？ 結婚生子？ 創業？ 」 這個可能會update吧，當我最近重新發現書架是我家。

3) 在你生活中最容易使你生氣的是哪一個人？在哪種情況下，他或她會使你生氣？ Who has the capacity to make you angrier than anyone else in your life, and what in particular does he or she do to make you angry?
認叻的人。約會但不追求
以專家自居，權威
鬧我情緒化，問我唔識答的問題
咁趕不應該去
別人對，我錯
很注意叻或唔叻。
挑剔但沒有講明想要的結果。

4) 在你生活中最常使你感到被愛的是哪一個人？在哪種情況下，他或她會使你覺得如此被愛？ Who has the capacity to make you feel loved more than anyone else in your life, and what in particular does he or she do to cause you to feel so lovable?
姐姐 送電腦
Acknowledge feeling & tum me
不因為我的行為而愛我，不為什麼。
較忙，不用我太關心。
將重要的事告訴我。
平等分享。

5) 更確切地講，你對自己在身體上、情緒上、精神上和靈性上的感覺如何？ What is it like being you? More precisely, how do you feel about yourself - physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually?

6) When do you feel inspired? Who and what contribute to your sense of inspiration? How does it feel when you are inspired?
Every daily event.
happy time.

 7) What is the most important thing in the world to you?
Book.
thoughts.
understand how the world works.

8) If you had one day to live, how would you want to spend?
Nature.
see the sunrise.
sleep enough.
eat something.
do reading or sewing at picturesque location.

9) When do you feel most afraid?
Not being loved. no use.
people make use of me.
bored.
no one to seek help.
not up to expectation.
No direction.

10) If you could accomplish only one thing during the rest of your life, what would it be?
Read all books.
write all blogs.
even when mom scold.
even when not love mom.
Even when no other half.
even when no friends.
even when no more piano.
mouth piece.
beauty.
with glasses.
no one understand.
no communication with friends.

11) What bores you? What always bores you, and what never bores you?
Repetition. Telling lie and fake humility.
Repetition with variation. music. Drawing.

12) How important is money to you? How much time do you spend thinking about it, and what income level do you aspire to?
Not care. but i need it of course. otherwise do not know how to make money. 300 daily. plus. 3000 monthly. Plus 30000 annually. Plus 300000 in a life.

13) What is the role of God in your life? Do you believe there is a God, and if so, what is God like in relation to you?
I am seeking God.
what pleases God? My role model of living. my standard of justification and discernment. my source to be of joy and emotion.

14) In order, what are your three strongest interests?
1. care people
2. donate money
3. express my complaints.
4. know what is right or wrong.

15) Who is your biggest enemy, and precisely how and why did this person become your enemy?

16) How important is food to you? Do you think of it often, and do you feel disciplined in your management of food intake?

17) Does the idea of being married to the same person for the rest of your life sound appealing to you- or not so appealing? What is there about it that you would especially like or not like?

18) Do you think yourself as an emotionally healthy person? In what ways are you especially healthy, and in what ways could you use improvement?

19) What is the role of conflict in your life? Do you argue or fight very much with the people closest to you? How does it usually turn out for you?

20) What specifically would you like your closest friends to say about you at your funeral?